What the heck? My life is not making any sense now. We talked yesterday about what I’m now calling my “pre-crush” on one guy and now there may be someone else! And he’s gotta be in his 20s, too! What’s a pre-menopausal gal to do? This makes a total of 4 guys crashing into my life. I gotta start giving them names.
First there’s Bro - I love him. I think he’s the greatest thing and I just want him in my life. I’ve told him that I feel his soul/his heartbeat and he doesn’t think that’s weird. I have no romantic attachment to him whatsoever, I just LOVE him with everything inside me. I hope you have a friend like that.
Next is Swing, the guy from yesterday. We did swing dance together at a party once. I keep running into him. My friend and I were talking last night and she mentioned him as a “safe” guy.
Then EyeCandy - He’s just beautiful and he has this amazing mouth - soo soo sexy! And I like talking to him because we both have sick and twisted senses of humor - a thing not easily found nor appreciated in the church.
Finally Sparky. We’ve been writing for about 2 weeks now. We don’t go to the same service, but we often meet because of mutual friends. Now we’re becoming friends. Well, the thing of it is he sent me something he wrote and I love his words. What kinda cheap chick am I that a few words on paper can make me all cheesy-swoony?
It’s so funny that these men are in my life and paying me a sort of attention…well, not Swing, but the rest are. I’ve been referring to this stage as my locust years. There’s a passage in the book of Zephaniah (it’s in the Bible) about God wanting to restore the years the locusts have eaten. Well, I lost about 10 years of flirting and attention from men because of family obligations and life in general. I really feel as though God is bringing them back to me in a way.
Of course, I also feel as though I’m turning into one of those girls who obsesses about boys and looks at every action for the hidden meaning. NO! I refuse to let that happen! I will just sit back and enjoy the ride…