It is nearly 2005 and so I’m thinking what my theme for the new year will be. This year was about building intentional friendships. I’m happy to say that I’ve deepened my older relationships by making myself more vulnerable and I’ve created new friendships by being more available.
Being blessed with a great number of friends, I could sometimes blow people off and not feel bad, thinking I couldn’t be a friend to everyone. But sometimes its not about being a “friend” per se, but just being available. I think this next year is going to be about aiding people - using my gifts to make connections.
I’m having the yen to entertain and if I want to do that I will seriously have to move. My friend just bought a very cool house - 10 of us can fit in her kitchen without crowding. I admit to being jealous. I want a house where people will feel comfortable. I want to have parties. But who knows where my future lies?
I’m still waiting to hear from Hollywood (Burbank actually, but Hollywood sounds more movie star) so I don’t want to make plans to move before February. And I will need a better paying job if I want to move.
And what will happen with this inner-city mission thing? I haven’t done anything with it yet, but the call is still on my heart and I guess it will remain there until I do something about it. But then, I don’t know what capacity. I don’t know what I’d do there.
So, I guess I’m getting a lesson in patience and “being still.” Instead of being apprehensive and worried, I’m going to work on being excited and anticipatory. I’ll let you know how that works for me.