This is Saturday and I’m up doing laundry. I got a call from my uncle this morning - he just flew in last night to AZ to see my grandmother. She’s still in the hospital and not responsive. On the one hand the doctors are really impressed with how well she is doing, on the other hand, she is not yet breathing on her own. They say she is not unconscious. The neurologist says that initial scans are showing that she did not have a stroke at all. I don’t know what to think.
My mother doesn’t want me to come out there early, so I guess it’s okay that they haven’t called the relatives in yet. But the prognosis is so up in the air - it’s frustrating!
I’m supposed to be meeting a friend for lunch today at noon. I’m looking forward to lots of laughter and a little shopping.
Do you ever look back over your life and see the ebb and flow of your relationships and wonder why some friendships come to the forefront of your life and why some of your best friends fade into the background?
I have a friend who I really just saw on Sundays at church and maybe every once in a while during the week, but now we are really getting to know one another and we have a lot of common interests. It’s cool. Then there’s another friend who I did something with at least once a week for about five years whom I now see maybe once every three months or so. And let’s not forget my best friend who got married three years ago and has seemingly dropped off the face of the earth.
That’s a friendship I’ve decided to leave in her hands. When we do talk she complains that she doesn’t have any friends anymore (her husband is passive-aggressive and controlling) but she doesn’t seem to recognize that she has the power to make and develop new friendships. I think making her husband her whole world is damaging their relationship and putting an undue strain on herself, because she is so social. A part of her is stagnating.
But I can’t fill everyone’s cup. It’s my own cup that needs filling right now and I’ve got to learn to be still and let it be filled. Easier said than done.