I haven’t written in so long because I really just didn’t have anything to say. I would open up the blog and get ready to post and realize I’m living the boring time of my life (which isn’t necessarily a bad thing) and there was nothing to write about. Now I’m coming into the summer of my life and things are picking up.
The weather is beautiful. I love June days before it gets really hot and icky but the sun is nice and bright and it doesn’t get dark until 8pm.
Today I have been fiddling around on the computer - spring cleaning of a sort. Plowing through olf files, updating my resume and making phone calls to friends I haven’t talked to in a long time.
Simplify is my motto for this year and I’m actually doing it. Dropping some old friends and embracing some new ones. Of course, once I made that decision I started hearing from my best friend. Her mother died recently and when she emailed me I called her right away and, because I couldn’t attend the funeral, I had my mother go in my stead. My friend called and apologized for not calling me and checking in on my when my grandmother died. Although it wasn’t necessary - I just accepted it for what it was and that she had moved on to a new phase of life without me - it was nice to hear her apology. Still, I think our friendship is going to be different from here on in.
On another front, I have made a whole new group of friends whom I love and really enjoy spending time with. We get together every couple of weeks and I laugh so hard I usually hurt afterward. I’m also meeting some of my old friends from work once a week for coffee talk. It’s like buttah. My friends are taking such dear and gentle care with me it makes me feel really loved. I don’t have to work hard to impress anyone or be cheery for their benefit - they just accept me as I am and respect what I am currently going through even though sometimes it means I don’t say much. I’m learning listening is a skill and sometimes you lift and other times you need to be lifted. It’s okay.